The feeling

The moment your seduced by its purpose 

You adjust to its reasoning. 

The four letter word that's harder to believe and even harder to keep.

Love

Depression 

With each ounce of salty water shed,

I realized how messed up i made it.

Wiping away countless years of misery.

What's even worse is the want to have the tears flow but, 

Your so num nothing comes.

You get gainful advice from those who know you best,

Yet it seems to fall on deaf ears.

Your eyes still burning from the night before 

Swollen shut.

Is it worth all of this?

You apply make-up covering your tear stained face.

You get up begin your day but a night you get to do it all over again 

When its over 

No matter the struggle,

No matter the pain,

Ask yourself, was it worth it in the end 

Not all things need to be 

Understood. They must 

Be respected. 

Honesty

Sometimes its the truth that can

 define what's never understood.

Pieces of Me

It's hard to understand my purpose.

Sometimes it even harder to try to get to the root of my problem.

Getting to love parts of me is my relentless wonder.

Explosive Love

When our worlds meant they weren't aligned with 

The stars so we crashed like meteorites.

-untitled 

I am beautiful;

I am enough.

I am loved.

I am wanted.

I am missed.

I am joy.

I am beautifully different.

I am me.

Divorced 

It was the uneasiness of asking for it. 

Remembering all of the happiness that once was.

How did it get to this?

Do you remember the heart felt kisses?

Do you remember the late night Pillow talk?

How did it get to this?

Walks in the park seem so lonely now even with millions of people around.

We forgot where we started.

Now all that fills our castle is hate, regret and shame.

No more love notes, No more phone calls just because.

All we have left are these papers to remind us of what was.

What's Left?

Every morning I wake up I recite a

Speech that was once shared with me by a friend.

Today is going to be a great day. 

Today is going to be a wonderful day.

Today is a day that the Lord has given me to right my wrongs from yesterday.

Each Morning when I'm done with my speech, i feel nothing.

I don't feel What ever I'm suppose to feel. 

The aspiration i had was gone. 

I just feel..Nothing.

What's the point?

What will fooling myself bring?

My mind feels just as my heart dose, empty.

My Dream

After all the heart ache you caused me 

I was broken.

I was afraid to give anyone that power again.

I was used.
I was used by your excuses not to be more.

I missed the way I once was.

Free.

Then i saw him. 

Our friendship became so deep

I believed in the impossible again.
 I leaped. 

I fell.

He picked me up and wiped away the hurt I felt.

He gave me a reason to believe again.

I'm..in...love!

Could this be? 

Could I really leave all of you behind and begin again?

He asked me and I said yes.

Falling 

High above everyone I'm soring. 

I see what's higher then the trees. 

The breeze has me mesmerized from its crisp smell.

Inviting. 

Never wanting to come down but,  now my time is done I'm falling. 

How will I land? 

Gemini 

It's easier to judge me.

Hell its eaiset to love me.

It's harder to leave me.

It's even harder to understand me.

It's just me. 

Sunshine 

Opening my eyes I'm excited.

Excited to begin a new bad which I was granted. 

The ability to do what I did yesterday but,

The wisdom to understand my faults in the day before

So today could be a little different. 

Peeling open the world I await thee. 

As you rise I'm bewitched by you beauty. 

Shower me with you rays to give me hope. 

Because today as yesterday the sunshine is the one 

That rises like a clock to give the

World another look of it. 

Reminder 

Keeping a closed mind means your never open to what's inside. 

Evolution less 

When someone grants your wishes you believe it's the best.

When thinking of what to ask for you get captivated most time by greed.

The need to be included.

Leaving a sense of what's needed your wants become true.

True to define the new you which you chase.

Your caught.

Caught up in The hype of what's the now you forgot about what was. 

Your bought 

The owner of your soul.

Your lost.

Black Ink 

Each brush stoke he makes is different then the first.

The way he fills me in Justifying all flaws.

The careful shaping of my right side matches my left, defining me.

He stares deep into my eyes to make sure he can capture the making of my soul.

He wants me....

Naturally beautiful.

He likes my curves.

The imperfections of each stretch mark leading to where life was once held.

He loves me.

His brush strokes me.
ink filled.

Painting the whole me.

Parts of me I knew sure were lost.

Covered.

His hands grabbing my chin to reposition my eyes to sky because, Queens should look to the heavens for which they were created. 

Shame of nothing.

Dose he need to see what innocence I have left?

Dose he yarn for what's underneath?

For now I will leave him a peace with he drawing. 

Whisper 

Each word that flows from her soul to her tongue. 

Bouncing from her lips to his ear.

The Night of the Woman

When I came over that night I was ready.

Ready to give my all to another careless soul.

I had given excuses to my keeper so nothing would seem out of order.

Uninterrupted.

Walking down the stairs to what would become my new safe haven.

He was waiting.

I dressed in a cheap express hoping it would given me more nerve to keep going. 

As he got up and walked towards me, he had my heart racing.

The closing of the door behind me had my stomach in knots and my brain flipping.

Guiding me over to his bed I nearly fainted. 

Gently peeling off my many layers of innocence till I stood naked. 

With each word you spoke loosing my grip on my woman.

Entering inside my sex with his.

Two souls enjoying lust, to young to know meaning of love so fucking at its best. 

I left that night pleased and confused.

Wondering when two young souls can loose themselves in each other again.

The Beginning

As rich as I want to be, these words hold more value.

Please join me for an Raw Poetic Journey. One with many twist and turns. Thoughts that come to me from different parts of me.

Enjoy.

-T